Subbing

Students using phones in class.
This is posted.
It was in my class.
The one I was teaching.
He was in, my class, ugh.
Am I failing?

Moving on

Sometimes it will feel weird when you realize you spent so much time with someone you are no longer connected to, but that’s exactly how it’s supposed to be. You are exactly where you’re supposed to be. We all are.

Choices

Looking at my life... I feel the path I took, the one that got me to where I am today, has run its course.
I knew/know I have not been happy for awhile. But I feel I'm ready to continue on.
Obviously, I cannot say, "Hey, welcome back. Lets be done."
It will take more "tack" than that.
But, I feel a sit down in my future.
The downside to this is that I have made some poor choices that will effect this conversation.
Why does $ have to be an issue?
I understand it is what propels our society, but I hate that it has dominated my life for at least two years.
I am ready to be done.
Nine years is four too long.
Compliancy is masking unhappiness.
I cannot settle.
I only wish there was someone to bounce these ideas off of that would not judge past decisions and has no feelings either way.
I guess I will see.

Sadness

You know the days you just feel sad? And you can't seem to articulate why?
Today, luckily, is not one if those days for me. But regardless of that, there are the lingering days that I have sadness wash over me and I don't want to talk about it.
The "one who got away," the "lost best friend." Despite the reason we all just feel sad.

People in our lives

So, we have people in our lives. Some good. Some bad.
But regardless they are in our lives for some reason.
Recently I have thought that the people in my life were pretty good....
Well, I am now realizing I am being taken advantage of.
I try to be nice, I try to help out to the best of my ability.... But I feel like I am being used more and more.
And I know I can't say anything.... No room to speak, as the saying goes.... But...
Frack

Building Sub

Well, this is way overdue. I am now the building sub at the school I interned at! Super exciting, 1) Because I actually have a paying job, 2) Because I know all the kids from last year.
So here is the aggravating part. Seventh graders. Well, not so much seventh graders, as much as the fact that I am thrust into any room and just supposed "to know." So, this whole week, and some of last, I have been teaching Math class. Anyone who knows me... or ANYTHING about me, I do not do math. Well, I have been the sub in a 7th grade math and Integrated Algebra class. OH GOD. I couldn't do fractions in school, and now I am supposed to teach fractions to seventh graders? On top of teaching graphing two lines in slop-intercept form to find a solution?! HELP! I made it through. And I have two more days next week. Let's just hope that the days go quickly.. these seventh graders are trying my patience.

Spring Break

Well now that Spring break is over, I have successfully managed to do nothing.
Super.
No grading. No entering of the grades. No working on my portfolio. Dangit all.
Which just stresses me out a little bit. Considering there is not a lot of "free time" until my entire student teaching section is over.
So now I am stressing some.
Doesn't help that my car's camshaft broke and now I have to drive my gas eating explorer. Yay! Not. Also, quitting my job.... Makes it so all these bills enjoy their pile-up.
It should get better right?